And just like that we are in February. I’m not going to say that January went extremely fast, because I don’t think it went neither quick or slow but I mean I learnt PLENTY in these past 31 days, so if January is trying to set the tone for this year, then let’s just say the 2020 end of year post is going to be juicy!
Crowned with Grace
At the beginning of the year due to plenty of untaken 2019 annual leave, I had the opportunity to really focus on Bee Crowned and it was honestly amazing. If you follow us via the socials or mail, then you would have been aware of the very first Bee Crowned event: Crowned with Grace which took place on 18th Jan 2020.
I mean it was something I could have only imagined. The event focussed on the grace of God that crowns us and enables us to get through life. The thing that Bee Crowned essentially as a platform wants to get across is that faith and life can literally go hand in hand. For me personally there is no life without my faith. I am who I am because of my faith and the belief that I have in the Lord, but for many there seems to be a separation.
I guess this year one of our aims is to try and dispel those preconceived and perceived notions pertaining to the Christian faith and essentially portray that albeit difficult at times, because I won’t lie sometimes… (insert side eye here) it honestly is a fulfilling life.
Everyday thus far has been a learning process. I feel as though I have achieved so much in these past 31 days, of which I am proud and for which I am grateful. Let’s delve into these lessons…
- “Feel the fear and do it anyway”
That is the name of a book by Susan Jeffers. I haven’t read it yet but the title definitely has caught my eye and stuck with me.
Sometimes we can really work ourselves up in our heads about situations. We can think of all the possibilities, the various ways it can pan out, how it could be perceived and received and literally think ourselves into a frenzy.
Recently I had to have a “big girl” conversation and honestly it really pushed me out of my comfort zone. Why was I so nervous about it? Well I guess the majority of the fear I felt surrounding the conversation was being vulnerable. I felt as though if I shared my thoughts and feelings then that will put me in a really emotionally vulnerable position and I just didn’t want that to be honest with you. There’s also the fear of what the other person is going to think, would this cause an issue, so many differing concerns, but I did it.
Airing out what I was thinking and feeling was such a huge relief. I mean outcome wise, you always have to an extent, be prepared to hear the answer you don’t want to hear so as to just give yourself a buffer, but irrespective of that, you don’t realise how much something is weighing down on you until you offload it.
For me personally this year I really want to try and gain as much clarity as I can when it comes to situations, relationships, work, anything I am involved in really. Confusion is not of God and I just don’t want to live under the blanket of I don’t know or I’m not sure. I want to know where I stand in various matters as that will dictate my efforts in all honesty.
This leads us nicely onto point number 2… ( I actually don’t think I will be able to share all the lessons thus far as this is already quite a long post….)
- Loving yourself, looking after yourself, focussing on you
There are a vast array of self care and self love books out there and I’m not going echo what they say but I am going to say, look after yourself. I’m not talking here in terms of soaking in the bath, taking a walk, switching off your phone etc, I mean all of those things are great for self care and mental health but I am talking deeper.
Your emotional and spiritual health are so so important to who you are and far too often we are neglecting it. Personally, I feel things quite deep and I’m quite in tune, sensitive and discerning of the emotions around me, whether my family, friends even people at work, I can just sense things quite quickly - sometimes I love it, other times I don’t but hey that’s the way God made me lol.
One of the things I have come to be aware of pertaining to emotional health is that if you do not deal with emotional issues, they are going to keep on resurfacing again and again and again and again and that can be painful!!!
Emotional pain is not nice and irrespective of how glammed up or suarve you may look on the outside, broken emotions have a way of seeping through the cracks.
Let’s not put plasters on wounds that need to be exposed in order to be healed. Let’s be brave and expose the wounds so that we can heal and move on with finality.
There’s been so many times I thought that I have been healed of certain things only to go through a similar experience and feel the exact same hurt from before but just more deeply because it’s an open wound that gets covered only to be prodded again.
So when I’m talking loving yourself, I mean love yourself enough to take the necessary steps you need to become whole. I’ll be sharing as I’m learning too - we’ll be in it together don’t worry, God has got us.
To be honest with you, I could write so much more but I don’t want this post to become extremely too long so I’m going to pause it there for now.
In the mean time, you can contact me via e-mail, insta or twitter. Make sure you’re on the mailing list and remember finally that you are loved with an everlasting love. God had got you, forever and for always.
Lots of love,