So I was sitting in the room for the Pure Hearts Ladies with Purpose Brunch (which I will write a review about soon) soaking in the ambiance. It was a very peaceful atmosphere and we had the beautiful Rae leading us in worship and you know when you’re just in a real reflective state? Yes, well I was in one of those and literally I was thinking to myself ‘what a year this has been.’ To be honest with you I was literally like to myself ‘it’s been real tough’ but then all of a sudden, I could hear God speaking to me and all I could hear was ‘Bee Crowned didn’t exist this time last year’ and from that singular message, I had a whole new outlook on the year 2016.
Now I’m not going to play down the things that I went through this year and forget that they happened but at the same time I’m not going to let all the not so good times define the year for me either and that was what I was on the road to doing.
It’s so hard sometimes to see the good in and amidst the foggy, grey, sad times. I’m not even going to sit here typing this and say ‘come on now, think positive, it’s simple’ because sometimes it really can be hard BUT even in that, I can truly testify and say that light does most certainly shine at the end of the tunnel and although weeping may endure for the night, joy does most certainly come in the morning.
This time last year there was actually no such thing as Bee Crowned lol. Yes I had a blog, yes I wrote bits and pieces from time to time but that was about it. So this year after much praying and some good old hard talking to myself and some good friends to get over the fear of stepping out of the boat, Bee Crowned was conceived and here you are today, reading on Bee Crowned’s site and that in itself is a testimony.
So yes there were tears and many for that matter but they have also been triumphs. Yes there’s been pain both physically and emotionally but God has been my healer. Yes there’s been heartache, but God is my restorer. Yes they’ve been disappointments and rejections but God’s ways are not my ways and He sees way more than I could ever see, so if something’s not meant to be for me then I’m going to accept that (maybe not easily lol but I will).
In and amongst everything, I’m so grateful. I’m grateful that I made it. I’m grateful for my family. I’m grateful for my friendships: the ones that have been there since the beginning, the ones that have been seasonal but will always be treasured, the new ones and the ones that taught me good life lessons lol.
Thank you Lord for Lord for letting 2016 happen. Sorry for the times I let my circumstances cloud the fact that despite whatever I was going through, you were always there. Thank you for being my Lord and Saviour, my Friend to the end, my Healer and Restorer, my Provider, my All. I ask and pray that as myself and also my readers go into 2017, You oh Lord will go ahead of us and prepare the way. I pray that we may come to greater manifestations of your love and glory in our lives and that Your Name will forever be praised. Thank you for the grace you have given us to handle whatever comes our way and may we always remember that You will never leave us nor forsake us today and for the days to come. Amen.
2016, it was nice knowing you, goodbye. 2017, I’m expectant, I’m ready, hello.